Belly Picture!

18 weeks 4th pregnancy baby girl Ellie!

It's a GIRL!!!!!!!

We are sooooooo elated and can't wait to welcome our newest addition to the world! Her name is Elliana (Ellianah/Eliana/Eliannah) Eileen (Ailene/Ileene/Ilene) Gaynor. We will call her Ellie for short. Eliana means "The Lord has responded" and "God has answered me", and Eileen means "light" and also is the name of Kevin's paternal grandma. it just all seemed perfect for our new addition.

We are relying heavily on the scan for abnormalities scheduled for the 28th. The 2nd trimester AFP came back normal, but so did Averi's. I do believe I will not be completely relaxed until we get the results from that scan. Our 3D u/s went well but I felt the pictures were really blurry and hard to make out or I would post them.

I must say that I am still so nervous because there are still so many things that can go wrong. So as we wait for the anatomy scan on the 28th, we pray. I pray for peace and strength. I pray for the health of all of my babies. I pray for the protection of Ellie.

I am not very savvy with my new camera and can't figure out Picasa2 to post these pictures. I have a better one that I need to figure out how to rotate and then will post that.



17-18 weeks pregnant with Ellie girl my 4th pregnancy.

So far So good

Ok, I haven't updated this blog in awhile so I thought I should. I am 17 weeks pregnant and do far all looks o.k. I do say this with a little hesitance because we haven't had our anatomy scan yet. We will have one on the 28th of this month, but have no patience to wait for that, so we scheduled one of those 3D scans you pay for, it will be on the 5th. I want to know if we are having a boy or girl. Mostly because I really felt like I bonded with Averi when we found out she was a girl and named her. I thought of every moment she moved as time we spent together and considered carrying her in my womb as holding her. I knew we may not bring her home so I relished in every part of my pregnancy with her. I didn't get to hold her until right before she passed, so I really appreciated the time I stopped and really paid attention to every movement she made in my belly. I want to do the same for this baby. I want to enjoy the things I used to take for granted. I am so very nervous, but I don't let that consume me(or at least I try really hard not to).

I miss Averi everyday and don't understand why God took her. However, I do know in my heart that God is good and He loves me. I choose not to lean on my understanding but trust in the Lord with all my heart. Don't get me wrong I have my rough days and lately my sadness seems to have deepened. In these times I go to God, He gives me a peace I can't get anywhere else. I have cried many tears, but I praise God through the tears because His grace is sufficient.

"And He said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for My strength is made perfect in weakness." 2 Corinthians 12:9

"I am leaving you with a gift—peace of mind and heart. And the peace I give is a gift the world cannot give. So don’t be troubled or afraid." John 14:27 (NLT)