Church service was awesome

Today's service was so fitting for us. As if the pastor was speaking directly to us.

I cried through most of the service. I knew God meant for us to be there.
Worship was so annointed, message was confirming and convicting and guest speaker was awesome.

Ok so, it was hard for me to be there at first because they started out with a baby dedication. As the pastor was talking he started saying how we were made in God's likeness, and that God had a special place in his heart for children. That regardless of what we look like or how we are born that we were His children.

The head pastor did a sermon on "pushing through" our anxiety about our health, finances, relationships. Pray, put it in God's hands, trust in Him, and push through. We can't wallow in our misery if we are going to see the answer to prayer or receive blessings ahead. Pray and Trust and Push Through. I thought very fitting for our situation even our teenage son ALex said "Mom did it sound like the pastor was talking to us"

On a side note, we have made our older children aware of what is going on throughout this entire time. In words that were fitting for their ages, we explained that Averi had a whole in her diaphragm and she would spend some time in the hospital after she was born. I wanted them to understand why I was sad at times and why I would need a moment from time to time. Ian, our 5 year old, just knows that the baby has an ouchie.

back to the service.....
Then the pastor had a guest speaker. She lost her son to cancer. He was 15. She spoke about how at 2 he was diagnosed with cancer that took is eyes. She never let that bring him down and that in his time here on earth he could skate, play video games just like the other kids, find things the other kids couldn't, and he reached so many by his message. A disablity doesn't have to affect his life. That because of his relationship with God he was able to go in peace. How that taught her so much and brought her closer to God. Even though his time here was short he was a champion in the Lord and taught so many people so much.

Kevin admitted that he cried during the service. I was shocked. He said he asked for forgiveness for not trusting in the Lord, for even comtemplating termination. He said that if there were ever a service we needed to go to it was that. He then said that he thanked God for me, that I had the courage to accept whatever challenges we had to face for Averi, that he was ashamed he did not have the same courage. He now was 100% without a shadow of a doubt positive that we were supposed to have Averi and that God had a plan for all of us.